"Untitled" by Ladd Butler

I AM FROM LOCKED ROOMS, CUT ARMS, BROKEN TEETH, TREE CHAINS AND SCOLDING PARENTS....LONE BOATING UNCHARTERED WATERS WITH OUT OF PLACE SCENARIOS AND HALF BLIND FACE ATTACHMENTS. I AM THE BROWN BOMBER AND BUD FOR MY 3 LEGGED CANINE. WHISKEY DOOR TEENAGE PATH TAKEN WITH CAR CRASHES TO LEARN AFTER YEARS OF SUFFERING AND PAIN THEN TO RECOVER AT 50 YEARS OF EXISTENCE....ONLY ONE THING CHANGED....WAS EVERYTHING.... OF ONE DIRECTIVE...MORE LEARNING...LESS KNOWING AS CONTINUOuS METAMORPHOSIS INCURRED..... FORGIVENESS CRUCIAL ....AMENDS PROFOUND....ALL IS REBORN FROM WITHIN WITH GRATITUDE AS SELF SEEKING BECOMES SELF FORGETTING AS MORE SHALL BE REVEALED.... FOR IT STARTED AS THE WALLS WERE CLOSING IN FAST....I WAS LIVING FAST....SOMETHING HAD TO BE DONE ....OR I WAS DONE...WOULD LIVING BE NONE? WINTER WAS COMING AND HAD PLANS TO LIVE UNDER THE SAGAMORE BRIDGE... FORAGING AND EATING SEAWEED IN HINDSIGHT... ONE CRAZY DEED! INTERVENTION DID FOLLOW....WAS HARD FIRST TO SWALLOW AS THIS BEACH NUT NOW HOLLOW...BECAME BEECH HILL HALL WALLOW! SURRENDER WAS READY FOR ME TO BE STEADY.... AS OZZIE ONCE SAID.... AS I THOUGHT IN MY HEAD "FOR DYING IS EASY IT'S LIVING THAT'S HARD"... AS TIME UPON TIME I NEEDED A GUARD. WARPED THINKING UNRAVEL...HAD NEW PATHS TO TRAVEL....SLOWLY I TRANSPORTED THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS FROM HENCE I HAD STARTED UN STARTLED.....BEING READY TO BEING.... THE NON DEPARTED.... I DON'T KNOW WHEN THE WAVE RIDE WILL END BUT HAVE TWO FEET ON THE BOARD.... IN LIFE'S JOURNEY WHICH SHALL BE MUCH SOARED. TIME WILL REVEAL ...WHAT MYSTERIES DEAL....FOR IF YOU NEED HELP HERE'S WHAT I OFFER....FOR WHEN I DRANK BOOZE BECAME QUITE THE SCOFFER! .... I OFFER MY EXPERIENCE, STRENGTH AND HOPE... BEEN TOLD ALL THE TIME NOT TO SAY "NOPE!" HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE....SOMETIMES NEAR....SOMETIMES FAR...MOST TIMES OF ALL ....IT WAS SUB PAR.....HAVE BEEN ON TRIPS OF SENSELESS DOINGS....AS LEARNING CURVES WERE MENTAL STEWINGS ...DIDN'T THINK WAS A LIFE.. ..VOID OF ALL STRIFE.....YOU CAN SHOW ME NOT TELL ME OF HOW LIFE MAY BE...ACTION WITH TRACTION I'M GLAD TO FORSEE ....FOR LEADS ON THE WAY OF HOW TO BE FREE!... FOR TO TALKING WILL LISTEN.....JUDGE ME NOT... WILL REBEL....FOR DEFIANCE METHINKS LEADS STRAIGHT ON TO HELL.....I DON'T KNOW IT ALL AS USED TO BE A KNOW IT ALL... FOR RESPECT IS WHAT ARETHA SAYS...IS ALL I WANT FOR FUTURE DAYS....THE NOISES IN MY HEAD WERE NOTHING MORE THAN FALSEHOOD DREAD.....WAS TOLD TO LOOK AT WORDS..... REMINDING ME OF ENGLISH NERDS.....BE SILENT AND LISTEN...FOR NOISE ON THE BORDER....SAME LETTERS HERE, IN DIFFERENT ORDER....LEARN TO LISTEN AND LISTEN TO LEARN...IS WHAT I FEEL STRONGLY FOR MAJOR
CONCERN....FOR NOW THAT IS SAID AND IT'S TIME TO BE STERN...BY WRITING A LETTER TO BEFORE I ADJOURN.....DEAREST ADDICTION; I HOPE YOU NOT WELL....FOR THE PRESENCE OF YOU BROUGHT ME STRAIGHT ON TO HELL...YOU ARE POISEN TO ME....CANNOT BE NEAR TOXICITY....I ONCE WAS WELL ... A HYPNOTIC SPELL... THOUGHT YOU WERE MY FRIEND.... BUT YOU WERE MY FIEND.... MAKING FUN OF LOGIC.... RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD... I AM GLAD THAT YOU ARE GONE AND HOPE WE NEVER MEET... FOR RIDDING YOU FOREVER IS ONE FANTASTIC FEAT! MAY YOU DISAPPEAR FOREVER FROM ME AND FROM US ALL...FOR TO HEAR OF YOUR MISGIVINGS IS SOMETHING TO APALL! BE GONE! BE GONE! I HEREBY DO DECLARE....FOR IF YOU EVER SHOW YOUR FACE AGAIN ....I URGE YOU TO BEWARE! I HAVE SAID ENOUGH TO YOU AND HOPE YOU GET THE POINT...YOU MUST NEVER COME AROUND AGAIN AND PUT ME OUT OF JOINT!

SINCERELY YOURS,
LADD B.

P.S. I HAVE RECOVERED ... HEALTH ... DIGNITY ... SANITY .... UNDERSTANDING ... COMPASSION ... MINDFULNESS ... JUST A FEW THINGS ON THE TIP OF THE RECOVERY ICEBERG....I HAVE FOUND EMPATHY FOR THOSE IN THE THROES....OF ADDICTION. IN MY RECOVERY JOURNEY HAVE HAVE FOUND PASSION FOR LIVING..... GROWING OLDER IS A GIFT...RECOVERY IS POWERFUL TO ME....A NEW BEGINNING...A SECOND CHANCE AT LIVING A MEANINGFUL AND REAL LIFE WITHOUT DISTORTION .... CRANIAL DOINGS WITHOUT CONTORTION .... BE IN THE NOW... FOR NOW I DO SEE... A CLEAR BRIGHT LIT PATH.. TO REALITY! MORE TRAVELS TO GO....BEFORE I GO...IT'S THE WAY I'VE HEARD... ALL TO BE SO! THAT'S ALL FOLKS!