"Something I Never Expected," by Lisa N.

There he was
So deliciously captivating
I looked over and caught his eye
I had felt him watching me, calling me
Tempting me
The tattoo on his neck should have been a warning sign “ STAY the fuck AWAY!!”
Yet, I felt a warm rush run through me
He lit me on fire
All from one glance.
I immediately was captivated… pulled to him
Like a moth to a flame
I should have known his was a flame that would scorch my soul; but that’s the thing when you start dancing with the Devil
You feel heat in your body down to your loins

and nothing can pull you away
I never expected to go there again
But I did that day. I began a slow seductive tango
We played that game….you know the one…I coyly look into his eyes, he looks up catches mine, I look away
TALK TO HIM my body screamed
I was too afraid
I tried to muster the strength and courage to speak
Words failed...as some part of me knew he was danger
My stop came.
As I stepped off the subway car, I watched him, our eyes still locked
As the doors closed he disappeared quickly, but our eyes remained connected until he slipped away deep into the tunnel…perhaps never to be seen again.
It was fodder for my imagination for months.

It became an obsession.

But the day came...he walked into a room …there we were, together again.

What were the chances?
There we were.
That was the beginning of the end for me.

A brief

ecstatic

soul crushing

rave
The beat of the music pulsed through me while I fell into the hole that was him...
I swore I’d never do it again. But I did. And it gutted me.
The scars remain.