"It Didn't Seem Realistic" by Kristen

It didn't seem realistic to me. I'm really struggling today. every day if I'm honest. I feel like crying. I was so determined to keep sober. but Friday tequila was on sale at the grocery store so I picked it up. and a bottle of rum. I drank the tequila on Friday when I cooked the lasagna for Saturday. Sunday I drank the rum. yesterday I walked to the corner shop and got a litre of vodka. I don't enjoy drinking anymore. I wake up in the morning feeling like shit. but wanting more alcohol. I can't seem to string weeks together to get a month of sobriety. I need help. but I don't know where to go. I feel like I'm letting my kids down, my sponsor down, my friend. I miss my kids so much and I want them back.